Here is my diary I am writting for you...  

     If you want some news about our children, Harriet got married (too fast for me) with David. He seems kind. Do you believe that? Our serious, candid little girl got married, she did it!
Moreover, Sarah have three beautiful children with William. We are old my dear. Did you remember us when we used to be young? we used to imagine such a lot of things... Angela is find,but she's still single.
I'm going to do the dishes, and then I will see Harriet's and David's house.
     

See you later, my love.

(Kim)

 Darling,

     I wanted to tell you that I may leave our bed of love to move in Harriet and David’s house. Indeed, they have already difficulties to get through it and now Harriet has just became pregnant! She will need my help and I confess that I am delighted to be able to spend more time with them. She wants me to sell the house of our dreams to make a profit but I can’t do it, it's too hard to leave this place where we had a wonderful time. Leaving this house it’s as I abandon you and I can’t resign myself to it!

     It is true that their new house is giant, a little too much for me because they are just two anyway! Nevertheless, they want many children and it looks well on! I hope they will keep reasonable. . .

     This is a large Victorian house in an overgrown garden where birds had built their nest in trees. Incoming in the house you can see a large room divided in two parts by a low wall. One half of it is a kitchen and the other half is the living room. It’s really spacious, there is space to put three sofas and two armchairs at least! When you take the capacious stairs to go upstairs you can understand how it’s an old house, it's a thing to frighten! In the first floor, there is a large room, the largest of all the house: David and Harriet’s bedroom. At this one is connected a small room that will serve for babies. Four other rooms are on this floor and the second too. Do you realize the immensity? Finally at the top of the house, there is a huge attic where children could have fun and invent stories!

     The only furniture that the previous owners have left is the bed, a big old bed that doesn’t inspire confidence.

As you see, I'll move into a mansion. I hope I could live somewhere else than at home.

 I miss you, I love you.

(Auriane)

     Oh, she has not changed much, you know, she’s always that girl shy and conservative that you knew already. Only, now she becomes a pretty young woman with blue eyes, very sweet but very thoughtful, she has brown curly hair which is totally out of fashion since long ago and she acts as a healthy woman! Do you know she remained a virgin until get married?! Really, who today still respect this old tradition! We no live in the Stone Age! It is the 60s!

 
     Since your absence I did everything so that she gets a good education to study sciences to become a graphic designer. This has allowed her to work in the sales department of a company that manufacture construction equipment. However, it was until she met David, her husband. Not whether is a bad boy, on the contrary, but I really think that between them all went too fast! Much too fast! If you were still here, you would see how your daughter became totally irresponsible!

     Barely did they meet, they already got married and both have moved in their huge house that I have described above and Harriet becomes pregnant.

    You're always in my heart, I miss you, I love you darling.

(Auriane)

 My dear,

     Our daughter's husband, David, is quite a good guy. He really looks like her! He is old fashion, like her, and he also wants a big familly in a huge house... Even if they married too fast for me. He works in an office, and doesn't earn a lot. Furtunatly, his father helps him.

His father is rich, this is him who give them money to finance all their spendings...

He seems to love her, they seem happy together... I which it will last long!

I love you, my dear.

 (Victor)

     Our little Sarah had good progress in life too, she has not really changed since your departure: she is still that little girl who embarks on life without fear. Thus she was the first of our three daughters who have been married! She married William, a very charming young man with who she had three daughters. However I feel that all is not perfect in their little world, they have some problems currently...

What do you think ? They are pretty girls of course.

(Auriane)

Good morning darling,  

     Today, I'm a grand mother for the fourth time. He's name is Luke, he's so cute, he has your eyes, blue like the sea. Althought Harriet and David get married and have a baby too fast, they seems happy in their mansion, quite isolated. But it's so appeasing to live their, I think that they want to protect themselves. You know Harriet, she's conservative, shy and "oldshool", but she find David. I'm going to help them for few weeks, with the arrival of Luke, they need some help.
     

      I love you.

(Kim)

     Such a big day my dear.

     We celebrate Easter in Harriet's house this year. I'm so tired but the smell of the bread remind me good times with you, and i'm feeling good...

     I think that I will stay for more than few weeks. Harriet is pregnant again, just three mouths after Lucke. this is too fast and David doesn't earn enough monney to look after the mansion...

Love You.

(Kim)

 
    Helen was born today, it's snowing outside. She is a cute baby with little pink cheek. she's healthy like Luke, such lovely baby they are. Harriet seems little tired, I'm going to help her.
 

All my love.

(kim)

My love,

      Last week, I went to David and Harriet's party, in order to help them for the organization. That was a great party, but with some tensions... Sarah and William are always fighting. Sarah's baby have the down syndrome, her name is Amy. She's too delicate that all we want is protect her. Oh my dear, she's so affective. But I can feel that Harriet despises them. I heard her comparing Amy to Genghis Khan...

      I have to help Sarah, but Harriet is pregnant for the third time, she wants me at home. Both wants me, and I can't decide. Moreover, I'm so tired!! What I have to do?? Help me...

By the way, Ghengis Khan was quite an important person...

I'm still thinking about you.

(Victor)

 
    Harriet gives birth to her baby today. A baby girl named Jane. She has Harriet's lips and David's forehead. I'm so fagged . I can't sleep, there is always a child crying in my dreams..
Moreover, Harriet seems more and more irresponsible

(Kim)

      Good morning my dear,

      I'ts a beautiful day, I'm writting you in front of the sunrise. But today, I've made a big decision, I didn't sleep during the night. I choose to help Sarah. She needs me, and I have to leave Harriet's home. She has to be mature and to be in front of her responsabilities. Moreover, I need to be present with my other great children! Amy is like the sun, she illuminates Sarah and William's life althought she has the down syndrome.
I have to go, and explain to Harriet that I live for Sarah's house.

     You're still in my heart...

 (Kim)

   My dear,

     Baby Paul was born during the spring 73. To my mind, he is the cutest baby I've ever seen... He looks like an angel! His smile is extraordinary. And he already knows some words! I know he is full of promise...

     By the way, David and Harriet have organized (with all the familly's help, of course) the biggest party I have ever seen in the familly. That was extraordinary! Amy is still as sweet. Everybody seemed to be happy (even Sarah and William)!

By the way, we were dancing on that song: 

 How I wish you were here to see that...

          I love you so much darling. 

(Victor)

     That's incredible!!! How she can be so IRRESPONSIBLE, and IMMATURE!!! Harriet is pregnant of three months AGAIN! Do you believe that???? And she did'nt tell me, I guess it. She has a childish attitude, she so arrogant!! I don't believe that... But I don't have any choice, I have to return to the mansion. It's so unordered without me... Moreover, monney's problems increase. I have to be there, just for my great children.

(Kim)

Honey,

     Harriet has had enough, I'm sure that the baby will be born before the expected day for sure. If you could see her stomach, it’s much bigger than during her previous pregnancies!

As you can see she is very big !

     Yesterday, in spite of the fact that she is eight months pregnant, I took her to Doctor Brett and she asked him to cause the childbirth. I could feel how much she was exhausted, but at the same time I can’t feel sorry for her because for me this is her fault. It may be wicked, after all she's still my daughter. . . However, she talked about her baby as if he were a monster in her stomach! Yet, despite the fact that she was more tired than during her other pregnancies, I found that it’s was an usual pregnancy. Nevertheless she persisted in saying that it was different, that this time it was worse! So much so that the Doctor wrote her a prescription for more sedatives. I do not agree with these practices at all. It's like a drug for her and the baby could be sick.

This is the ecography of Ben

       As you can see, our daughter is more and more irresponsible. I don't know what I can do for her, I would like you to be there with me. And to help me to cross this. . . .

(Auriane)

     Today, a new little son is born! You would have been so happy to see this large family! I regret that you can’t see that. But I confess that I am a little reluctant in front of the birth of this new child...

     Firstly, Harriet still the mother, their money and family problems have not prevented from them to start again. But this time it's different! Her pregnancy was more difficult and painful than any other! She was exhausted and could not do anything! She had even renounces to invite all the family for parties! This little baby was killing her from the inside...!

    His birth was different from others, he was born to the hospital! Moreover, when he arrived, he roared like an anima... It's awful! He does not look like a baby. He’s very big, very muscular, he’s of a yellowish color with full of hair on his head. His birth, was not accompanied by a small party, there was no champagne Nobody wanted to celebrate the arrival of this little monster..!

You can see your last grandchild, Ben

I fear for the future honey. This little Ben is not a good omen.

(Auriane)

My dear husband,

     More days pass, more Ben shows to be an unusual and naughty child. Moreover, sometimes he’s violent.
For example, today something bad happened. I was in the kitchen when I heard screams. Hence, I rushed upstairs to see what was happening and I was stupefied when I arrived in Ben's room. Paul had gone into Ben’s bedroom by himself, he had put his hand in to Ben through the cot bars because he wanted to play with his brother. Ben had grabbed his hand and pulled him hard against the bars bending his arm in all directions with a sadistic pleasure.

Poor little Paul’s arm is badly sprained now.   

All my love  

(Auriane)

My love, 

     Nowadays streets are not quiet any more, we listened bad news on the television every day. Little Ben is more and more uncontrolled. Nobody really loves him. I still try, but it is not like the other children, he is wild, he refuses any sign of affection, he isolates himself from the others and he is always so violent!!!

     Towards the end of August, someone brought a dog which Ben seemed to appreciate a lot for once, he followed him everywhere like his shadow. However one morning, we found this dog dead in the kitchen. According to the veterinarian he had been strangled. It's very terrifying darling, I know it's wrong to think that but I can’t hold on thinking that it’s Ben who did it. . . The worst is that three months later (namely yesterday) the old gray cat of Mr. McGregor (a neighbor) was killed in the same way.
I'm really worried, imagine it’s Ben the culprit, he could do the same thing to a child, a brother, like Paul, for example. . . .

 (Auriane)

Last week, I had to look after Ben during one week.

And to be frank... That was the most horrible week of my life. That was even worse than the week we have spent to repair our toilets leacking, when I was pregnant of our first child and when you have broke your leg. During that week we were so indebted that had to sell a half of our assets.

But that week was definitly worse.

That Ben is a monster. I couldn't sleep the night.

Every nights, he was standing dehind the door of my room watching me sleeping, with his yellow and devilish eyes... Is was so scared. I told him to go back to his bed, of course! But he just didn't react. So I wore it to bed and I closed my door. But 15 minutes later he came back, looking at me through the open door. A little bit like this:

During the day, he was just eating and watching television. I tryied to entertain him, but he just didn't look at me. I took him to the park, but there he yelled on children in order to scare them, and then he went back to me with a satisfied smile.

I tryied, a swear. But I can't love that child. He is a monster. And to my mind, Harriet is partly guilty...

Anyway, I think that I need a rest. I have been mentally and physically exhausted by that week.

At least, you are able to avoid this...

With all my love.

(Victor)

Honey, 

     I’m going to crack up, I feel that my body is tired, my morale is fragile and I want to stop everything. However I think that maybe this is a selfish attitude, I must help my daughter. My decision is taken, I need  to rest. I'm going to tell to Harriet that I take some holidays and she will not have choice, she must manage herself as long as I rest. I will go to Sarah’s house because her children are more quiet thus I will be able to help her.

     Moreover I miss you so much. Listen this song So far away singing by Carol King, it's make me thinking about you because of her lyrics. It tells our story . . .

I keep thinking of you. I love you. 

(Auriane)

     This night, Harriet took Ben back to the house. I understand her choice because she's a mother, her mother. But Ben is to weird, he' like a monster, I don't love him, but I have tried...

(Kim)

My love,  

     A little before the return of Ben, Harriet hired  John so that he takes care of garden. He is a big, shaggy, amiable youth, good-natured and patient who did odd jobs to try to earn some money. Ben likes John, he follows him everywhere like a puppy, he helps him, he speaks with him. Sometimes he whines when John goes off.
Harriet had decided to hire John for full-time to looks after Ben because  he is inappropriate to go to school, now. Thus the house is more quiet during the day. John comes and picks Ben up in motorcycle to 9 am and returns at night for dinner. Now, Ben is a member of the band of unemployed persons who lounge about streets. This is not a good situation for a child, but I confess that it does not displease me, the house is more restful. Moreover, Ben likes it, and the family becomes again a  real family, things are better, the family is connected.

     John told me that his dream is to go to The United States with his motorbike and drive with his friends on American road like in the movie Easy rider. I put for you a passage of this movie which was realized by Dennis Hopper in 1969.

     This is a road movie which became cult since the hippy generation during 1960-1970. It tells the story of two young motorcyclists, Wyatt and Billy. I like this movie because it's a good representation of the life of nowadays. What do you think ?

(Auriane)

My dear,

Today is Ben's first day to school and he scarcely says a word... I wonder what result it will give!

I miss you so much... I will never forget you!

(Victor)

     Ben leaves the house today. I'm so relieved but also scared... We don't know where he is, and what he's doing...
All these problems are caused by harriet, her immaturity and her arrogance destroy her, and the family...
The notion of the family is definitly dissolved....

(Kim)